I'm despising the holidays. Wooo for family fun and gifts and wasted money and gaining 10 pounds. I also lose my kids for a week. They go to their dad's. However, that 5 days has been filled with name calling by their dad, letdowns due to gift inequality, bloody noses that apparently only I can deal with. It breaks my heart when one of my kids calls from 2 hours away and I can do nothing because I can't even get out of the house due to weather. I wish things would go better. I pushed for 2 years for my ex to take the kids and have a life with them, like i didn't have with my dad. Now he does and it's a nightmare. What was I thinking?
I am leaving now to go get them. This week will be filled with fighting and tears and backtalking and behaviors at school. I wish this could be easier.
Yay! I start classes again tomorrow. I have an online class from 7:30-9:30 pm and the other one I just read for and do work. Tuesday Ash has a game, Wednesday is WOW at church. Thursday nothing and Friday the kids both have games. Ash has a game Saturday, then Sunday we have our Christmas program at church. Sooo almost every one of those nights I also have to be in 2 places at once to pick kids up from practice. I wish we could get Hunter into Ash's school to avoid all this running. I also start working 8-4 this week, which gives me an extra 5 hours a week on the paycheck. Every little bit helps right? Hoping for a raise in March!!!!!
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